桃花桃花，几时开花？

有人的桃花，一年四季都在开。
有人的桃花，十年应该才开一朵。
我的桃花呢？常年都在开着烂桃花。

Illusion Stress

Recently I had backed to the same place, a place where I depress and learn reality, my university. Finally I can release everything as I already completed my degree. I planned to further study for master and PhD program. Stress comes to attack me when there are no direction and no way out. It is not easy as you thought if you want to do something that is not familiar. I need to rush many place just to do the application for master study. It was done last week, so this week I decided to back Uni for preparation work. It was an empty shell for me to go back. Everyday I am like passing the day by day and waiting for the next instruction. I feel tired, exhausted. I heard my friends are busy with preparing their proposal as the deadline is coming near, but my title has not been settled down yet. So what can I do? Hang out everyday? Almost bankrupt and keep using all my saving. Aighh~ depress.....